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Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Used and Abused.
a boy,
so i finally find one.
one whos decent, kind, attractive, affectionate.. etc.
so i'm happy.. until.
yes theres always the "until"
one night he goes upstairs to make dinner and get me ice cream while i am laying down stairs on his bed, relaxing, feeling at leisure, decided to text my friend brie to see when she will be finnishing work and picking me up. (knowing me i naver have credit) so i grab the guys phone to text brie, as i go to rtext brie what do i find but messages to another girl..
quote:-
"i'm not with her" (talking about me)
"i want to see you, do you want to see me?" (to her)
"i never though you liked me" (to her)
he walks downstairs and catches me just as i finnish reading the last hurtful line of the messages.
at this point i am in shock, i dont know what to do so i decide to ask him whp this girl is.
he freaks out (but still unaware that i have read the messages) until i tell him and he dosent know what to say. but eventually he admits to it and says that he had been seeing this girl before he saw me and he still has feelings for her etc etc.
hmm what a cunt. why would he even start something with me when he still has feeling for someone else? dont understand. i find it hard to understand things that people do which i totally would not be able to do. so yeah, he drives me home and thats the end. so quickly only 20mins earlier we were kisssing cuddling being sappy and coupley and then in one instant its all over.
he must have really cared for me :
err so over males being such selfish cunts, its soo not fair, dont lead a girl on or see them unless you actually want to be with them, such a waste of my time and my emotions. but yeah i am over it, happened a few weeks ago, but boy did i take it hard.
i read this one a girls blog and i think its perfect:-
"i am a saint, i am a queen, and you are just another boy without a crown"
and its true, he is just another wanker. i am not the most beautiful, funny, wonderful person to be around, but i am not a little skank, i'm not nasty, i'm honest and caring, and quiet frankly i'm alot better than him.
i watched wicker park today.
its an excellent movie, twists everywhere through it, but the ending is soo good, and
coldplay- scientist, sets the mood sooo well.
xx
so i finally find one.
one whos decent, kind, attractive, affectionate.. etc.
so i'm happy.. until.
yes theres always the "until"
one night he goes upstairs to make dinner and get me ice cream while i am laying down stairs on his bed, relaxing, feeling at leisure, decided to text my friend brie to see when she will be finnishing work and picking me up. (knowing me i naver have credit) so i grab the guys phone to text brie, as i go to rtext brie what do i find but messages to another girl..
quote:-
"i'm not with her" (talking about me)
"i want to see you, do you want to see me?" (to her)
"i never though you liked me" (to her)
he walks downstairs and catches me just as i finnish reading the last hurtful line of the messages.
at this point i am in shock, i dont know what to do so i decide to ask him whp this girl is.
he freaks out (but still unaware that i have read the messages) until i tell him and he dosent know what to say. but eventually he admits to it and says that he had been seeing this girl before he saw me and he still has feelings for her etc etc.
hmm what a cunt. why would he even start something with me when he still has feeling for someone else? dont understand. i find it hard to understand things that people do which i totally would not be able to do. so yeah, he drives me home and thats the end. so quickly only 20mins earlier we were kisssing cuddling being sappy and coupley and then in one instant its all over.
he must have really cared for me :
err so over males being such selfish cunts, its soo not fair, dont lead a girl on or see them unless you actually want to be with them, such a waste of my time and my emotions. but yeah i am over it, happened a few weeks ago, but boy did i take it hard.
i read this one a girls blog and i think its perfect:-
"i am a saint, i am a queen, and you are just another boy without a crown"
and its true, he is just another wanker. i am not the most beautiful, funny, wonderful person to be around, but i am not a little skank, i'm not nasty, i'm honest and caring, and quiet frankly i'm alot better than him.
i watched wicker park today.
its an excellent movie, twists everywhere through it, but the ending is soo good, and
coldplay- scientist, sets the mood sooo well.
xx
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