hmm..

i think i may have just discovered something verry interesting.
not that i agree with the whole situation but i love getting opinions on situations.
because having opinions from both sides helps you to make your opinion on the matter the most unbiast. so thats how i see every situation and i think everyone should be given a fair chance and a chance to voice there opinion. (even if its totally fucked up and not right, because they have to be coming from somewhere in the end)

but yeah the website.
http://smoochntell.blogspot.com

its pretty cleaver, a females perspective on men and her experiances with them. havent had a chance yet to fully read it but have read some snipits out of the blog and i find it pretty interesting so far.

probably a good thing for me to be reading, because i find that i get, not attached but i always see the good in people, especially males, and find myself getting hurt alot by males. which annoys me because i hate the fact that some stupid prick could have that affect over me and make me second think my opinion of myself or the way i look or my personality as not being good enough.
it happens to femals aswell when i befriend them and i give them my trust and they backstab me, and i just dont understand why people do it, but i guess not everyone is decent. actually alot of people arent. but thats just how things are. and we have to cope to deal with it.
but enough i have to go to bries house/

frogs legs and camels humps

i have been happy recently,
until ofcourse when i came home and getting abuse from every dirtection.
fucking hate it, hate hate hate.

starting to take some pictures to draw, got a facination with the female body at the moment so got some girls to pose nude for me, and going to draw them with charcol (b&w)
see how it works out.

umm watched one of my all time fav movies before,
Requiem for a dream.
jared leto is one of the most beautiful people walking this earth, in my books.
cant handle how the mum goes crazy,
i never want to be like that or even close,
lonliness is something i cant handle.

also watched the dreamers and american beauty.
also some of my favourite movies.
keen to watch fear and loathing. but fucking blockbuster didnt have it and i have no idea where my dvd of it has gone, along with a bunch of my belongings.
should really pull myself together and collect up my shit, insted of giving it away or letting people steal it considering my poor ass bitch circumstances.

i'm going on a diet again. lost weight. 46kg's.put some back on 52kg.stayed like that for awhile. then put on 2 more kg's. all of it seemed to go to my boobs. been asked a million times if my boobs are real. over it. want to get rid of them. found the greatest website ever...

homotography.blogspot.com

going to go do these drawing now, really want to go out tonight but have no money.
having a fight with centerlink. been months now and they havent given me shit, even though i have no money, cant get a job, no place to stay except with friends/sleeping on the floor. ugh. so shit.

starting to like a guy. for his personality, probably because i dont know him. shit because hes beautiful too, and knows it. waste of time.