Mixed Emotions

ugh so latley, i have been really sad in some aspects but really happy in others.
for example. i have found/made some amazing clothes, which makes me really happy, and i have been frequently visiting the beach or salarium so now i'm nice and tanned and i have also lost about 7kg. so thats always a good thing.
but on the other hand, i have been really anxious and feeling really rejected and that i need to get a new start and forget about everything. so thats made me all sad and disconnected lately aswell.

we went to good vibes over the weekend, it was so good, saw sam sparrow, yelle, deadmau5, the presets, and heaps more.
fully got the whole crazy festival thing going on, it rained so it was muddy and every one was dirty and wet and sweaty on drugs and i always ended up squishing myself into the front of the mosh where i managed to get a million bruises from getting pushed around by all the sweaty drunk/drug fucked shirtless dudes that were surrounding me.
oh was also pretty cool because my friend kept on putting me on his shoulders so i got some good veiws from up there and was put on the big screen so many times. reow.

this week should be good, apparently will be getting free accomidation down the coast on wednesday night and on thursday the launch for fashion kids will be awsome, and i think for the rest of the weekend i might take it pretty easy, well thats my plan atm, but i'll probably end up going out friday and saturday night. i have this problem where i have to go out or do something on fridays and saturday or else i get really depressed and feel shit.

anyways these were our outfits for good vibes.

Hes just not that into you.

"hes just not that into you"..
the statement of my life. haha
we (a couple of my friends) and i have been discussing our love lives,
subject came up, since valentines day is approaching, and we will all be ALONE on valentines day.. yes how depressing.
this is what we have come up with:-
brie (my closest girlfriend)- dosent like clingy boys, she likes people who are secretly in love with her and she hates when boys show weakness, she also tends to focuses on there negatives. She likes attension of boys, but she dosent like to much, and only when she wants it. She also hates boys who talk about themselves to much, because she should be the one that feels special.
Chrissay- Seems to always be the 'rebound' girl, she always get caught up with boys who have just come out of serious relationships and thus they are not ready to commit again. OR she has also been known to get involved with backpackers who are visiting the country. ugh.
Stef (me)- I am the complete opposite to brie, if i like someone i like to let them know and i love being close to people that i like. I tend to focus on all there positives and if they do something really hurtful, i always seem to forgive them because i figure there must be a reason.

thats pretty much our conclusion to the subject.
but yeah. i, like many girls are always getting hurt by boys, and no matter how much it pisses me of, i think that in the end its a good life lesson, and makes you stronger as a person. i also, like the fact that i can have feeling for someone and not get scared and want to be with them, and pleasure myself physically with somone that i actually care for, insted of being a big dirty germ and going around fucking random people. I seriously dont see how anyone could get pleasure out of that... but some people do!

anyways, valentines day isnt that much of a big deal anyways, and i am still young so i'm not really that bothered about being single!

in other news, i went to the beach today, was pretty fun, planning on working up my tan, i got really taned last year, but this year i have been abit slack .... whoops. haha

Crystal.Castles

so the other night, i went to the met (club in brisbane) to see crystal casltes play.
ughh they are like one of my favourite bands and they were so amazing. rahh
ended up having the most randomest fun night, and then this chick came and gave us v.i.p entry so we got a sweet v.i.p deal. but yeah was so good.



these are some photos from it.
we forgot to take the camera, so :(
but yeah...
-stef and jhayke.


-jhayke,stef and brendan.

Shit Cunts

so recently i have been seeing this guy and we have become pretty close,
but even though we werent together i always thought he wouldnt fully go off and fuck some other chick.. yeah i was fucking wrong!
i'm just so sick of feeling sad because of other people, and yeah i
'm going to sit here and bitch and moan about it, and then i'll call up my friends and bitch and moan about it and then i'll probably cbring up the subject in another few weeks and bitch and moan about it again, because i guess it makes me feel better about myself.
how very sad.!

oh and i want some pants like this..

i'm going to bleach my purple ksubi's so hopefully they turn out good, and a good trick to make them look rugged is to get your cheese grator and like grate the fabric.

i got these jeans for $4 at life line (second hand store) yesterday, and made them into some high pants, there abit big though. damm it.

LookBook.

I've been so depressed latley,
because there is this amazing website,
lookbook.nu
and it has so many beautiful clothes.
it kills me, because i want them so much, unfortunatly a jobless, partying to hard, smoking too much, life dosent leave me with many pennies.
Boo.

Fav Songs atm:-
Paris is Burning-Ladyhawke.
Dimmakmmunication- The Bloody Beetroots
Frank Sinatra- Miss Kitten

Fashion Kid

so like anyone in the brisbane area, should come to gpo on the 26th of feB,
its the launch of fashion kids,
and its going to be a wild night.
full of beautiful people and endless amounts of cigarettes and alcohol.
<3